Fickle-minded me

I'm so fickle-minded!!!!! I just feel like killing myself can. grrrrrrr

I got a job offer a few days ago. with darn good pay in a huge company. And i actually HIAM the job. Over the weekend, I thought so hard abt it, over and over again. Today, I decided to call and tell the HR tt if they want me to start working on 3rd, i will just reject it. Ahhhh but stupid me didn't!! I was allowed to start on the 10th, and when i heard tt there are also other newbies like me, my perspective kinda changed! My first dread abt the job is that I won't be able to find someone my age but it seems now that this is no longer a problem! But den, now how?!

At the same time, I am in the midst of 3 other job interviews... 3 interviews that require verbal and numerical tests, and i totally suck at numerical tests!!!!! But these 3 jobs offer good prospects too.. and 2 are MA programs! Ohhh kill me... Since its not guaranteed tt I will get one of these jobs, there is a possibility tt i will end up with no jobs in the end!

I really feel like slapping myself! gawdddd why can't I just make up my mind?! Come friday, when I need to give the HR a call, I am gonna be so scared!!!!

This is like a totally apt image of how i look like now.