Mid Week...

Finally, the trade fair at Suntec is over.. my boss gave the marketing team a treat just now. I'm starting to like my boss now cos he is really quite funny and nice to all of us, well at least now... haha

I went JB last sat with my colleagues! All 14 of us.. was really fun lar. Though they are like mostly 4-6 years older than me, I'm glad we're quite a close group. Recently we go out with one another so much.... yest we just went drinking, today they went to watch a movie together and this sat, we're meeting up for a bbq...! So happening right...

Here are a few of them.. yw, dun needa look so closely yar, i'm the prettiest one there la hahahhahaha.. btw i'm not in the photo hor.

Working life is so different... suddenly, the things that i do now are not what i used to do. I drink much more, i laugh much more and i am friendlier. I feel like.. I've changed. I don't think any of my colleagues would believe me if i told them i was very anti social and hardly smile. Is the change good or bad? I guess its both. I've changed, not for my own sake but for the sake of work, and suddenly, I've lost my sense of identity. I wonder who I am, what is my personality like. And.. I feel like I want to be another person, I want to be older and wiser. And i want to do things like learn golf, go diving.. travel all over.. It's a funny feeling i cant describe. It's sth like, when we were young, we always wish we were grown ups (tt's the reason why we play masak masak and pretend to be like adults) so that others will see us as adults instead of kids who know nothing. Sounds sad, hor? But no lar, i'm a happy person.

At the same time, a lonely person... my bf is always busy.. not always but often. His studies is the wall that's between us. At the begining of the term, he was busy with tutorials, now he is busy with meeting project datelines and very soon, he will be busy with exams. When I see my colleagues who go out after work to meet their other halves, I feel so envious. After work, i'm either gg home or I'll just walk ard tampines mall. I spend so much time alone - waiting for bus, on the bus, and shopping. It's only weekend - mostly Saturdays only. Sunday he gotta rush back to hall. Sometimes I really feel like I'm single. Phone calls usually end with "OK lar, you go and sleep, I gotta go and finish up my readings/tutorial/editing." Otherwise, its late and I gotta sleep and hang up the phone. I just feel so alone sometimes, and I imagine my life as a silent black and white movie that is always looping-day after day after day, I do the same thing, i feel the same way. Sometimes, i crave for excitement in my life, for something special to happen to me, or even, just a direction that I can move towards.

Generally, I'm still a happy person... God, give me some excitement in my life!!