Mid Week...

Finally, the trade fair at Suntec is over.. my boss gave the marketing team a treat just now. I'm starting to like my boss now cos he is really quite funny and nice to all of us, well at least now... haha

I went JB last sat with my colleagues! All 14 of us.. was really fun lar. Though they are like mostly 4-6 years older than me, I'm glad we're quite a close group. Recently we go out with one another so much.... yest we just went drinking, today they went to watch a movie together and this sat, we're meeting up for a bbq...! So happening right...

Here are a few of them.. yw, dun needa look so closely yar, i'm the prettiest one there la hahahhahaha.. btw i'm not in the photo hor.

Working life is so different... suddenly, the things that i do now are not what i used to do. I drink much more, i laugh much more and i am friendlier. I feel like.. I've changed. I don't think any of my colleagues would believe me if i told them i was very anti social and hardly smile. Is the change good or bad? I guess its both. I've changed, not for my own sake but for the sake of work, and suddenly, I've lost my sense of identity. I wonder who I am, what is my personality like. And.. I feel like I want to be another person, I want to be older and wiser. And i want to do things like learn golf, go diving.. travel all over.. It's a funny feeling i cant describe. It's sth like, when we were young, we always wish we were grown ups (tt's the reason why we play masak masak and pretend to be like adults) so that others will see us as adults instead of kids who know nothing. Sounds sad, hor? But no lar, i'm a happy person.

At the same time, a lonely person... my bf is always busy.. not always but often. His studies is the wall that's between us. At the begining of the term, he was busy with tutorials, now he is busy with meeting project datelines and very soon, he will be busy with exams. When I see my colleagues who go out after work to meet their other halves, I feel so envious. After work, i'm either gg home or I'll just walk ard tampines mall. I spend so much time alone - waiting for bus, on the bus, and shopping. It's only weekend - mostly Saturdays only. Sunday he gotta rush back to hall. Sometimes I really feel like I'm single. Phone calls usually end with "OK lar, you go and sleep, I gotta go and finish up my readings/tutorial/editing." Otherwise, its late and I gotta sleep and hang up the phone. I just feel so alone sometimes, and I imagine my life as a silent black and white movie that is always looping-day after day after day, I do the same thing, i feel the same way. Sometimes, i crave for excitement in my life, for something special to happen to me, or even, just a direction that I can move towards.

Generally, I'm still a happy person... God, give me some excitement in my life!!

It's been a long time

Hi everyone... I'm finally back to blogging.. got a scolding from mabel yesterday for not updating my blog. I guess there're many things for me to tell all of u.. and sadly.. not all are good news..

For the good news first... went out with emily n evon on children's day to have dinner together. Here are some photos..

We were at a Japanese restaurant at Marina Square, they serve nice food. =) Yum Yum

That's evon before she tucked into her meal. Her papersteamboat was yummylicious

Next time when i go there, i'm going to order this! Emily's order came last.. and she was hungry when she saw the food... so i secretly took this on my camera:

She looks so yao1 gui4 right?! HAHAHAHA.. den my ramen came.. it was such a huge bowl that this time round, both evon and emily was stunned by it.

Check out that expression. I'm so glad i'm the photographer. We also order this unqiue dish. Raw meat is served on a piece of leave, with a piece of solid fuel buring underneath:

The name of the dish - WHY LEAF NEVER BURN?

It was a fun and nice evening... there're photos of cakes from bakerzin... but i'm really too lazy to upload those photos..

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Life has so far been okay.... jus leading a very normal life, with not much excitement. Is that part of a working life? Well, but i should be glad that I'm not stressed out from work.

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Recently, I went to see a specialist regarding my knee. I've been having knee pain for quite a few months already, and it is bothering me a lot because everytime after i run, the pain comes. Its preventing me from training for my half marathon in dec. So i quickly went to see a doc abt it, hoping to get rid of the pain.. Apparently, the muscles at my knees, the tendons are over stretched because my thigh muscles are all too weak to support my weight when I am running. Now i thought this only happens to fatter ppl whose knees are unable to withstand the body weight. but apparently, being too skinny brings the same problems.

So, i have to do physio to strengthen my muscles to ease the pain. But the past week, the pain worsens after all those gym visits and exercises tt i did!! Stopping exercise doesnt solve the problem, strengthening muscles also doesn't. It so frustrating, especially when my marathon is drawing near. The gym trainer told me that my knee pain will never go away, and that joining the marathon will aggravate my knee. I almost wanted to cry when i heard that. BEfore you call me a cry baby, lemme explain myself.

Firstly, it is a dream to run a marathon. but i know full marathon is almost impossible, hence i opted for half marathon. It's something that i wanna do once in my life, and to me, its an achievement. Hence, if i were to jog walk jog walk during the run, I might as well dont do it. But I want to do it! You know wad i mean??

Secondly, I persuaded all my friends to join with me! THey all paid $38 each, and i feel so bad that i cant even complete the race with them properly. They will probably understand my situation.. but.. it's really sth tt i dont want.

Yes, I know marathons is a yearly event.. but next yr.. who join with me? ANd it wont be meaningful anymore if i'm not doing it with my friends!

And its not just because of the marathong tt's i'm frustrated. I love jogging so much (and after so many years).. when i finally have the discipline and passion to jog, I cant jog like a normal person.

So, my solution to this problem is tt i will see a 中医. Maybe he can help.........